Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Blue Eyeshadow Bliss

As of late,  I have not been posting because I am having a hard time adhering to the Ke$ha theme that I set up for my blog.  However, Ke$ha obviously doesn't feel the need to stick to certain boundaries, so neither do I.  That being said, here is post number three.  (Yes, I am dreadfully behind).

Earlier, during my lunch break, I took a trip to the bank to deposit a few checks.  Usually I do not really enjoy trips to the bank, as they remind me how much money is actually in my account, or rather, how much money is NOT in my account :(.  But today, I had a wonderful experience that I'd like to share.

I firmly believe that fun, quirky people make the world go round.  Today, the sixty-something year-old banker lady, Kay, proved to be exactly one of these quirky types.  As soon as I walked into the grandiose lobby of the PNC in downtown Bloomington, my eyes were instantly drawn to her neon blue eyeshadow that extended from lid to brow, topped with cerulean mascara.  As soon as we made eye contact, she smiled widely and greeted with a "Hello!" almost as vibrant as her makeup and kindly asked, "What can I do for you, dear?"

At first, I assumed her over-the-top friendliness was part a part of some new enthusiasm movement PNC has adopted.  Whenever I walk in, I am greeted by at least three, completely insincere men or women in suits.  So, assuming her tone was just a part of some new customer retention practice, I murmured a quiet "hello" and handed her my carefully filled out deposit slip and checks.  She examined it, noticed my long name, and asked, "So, are you Gen?"  Taken aback that she had actually taken genuine interest in me, I said, "Yeah, sometimes.  I'm a variety of things, depending on who you ask."  As she scanned my checks, she asked me, "Oh yeah?  Like what else?"  I shared with her that my friends usually just call me by my full name, my family knows me by "Geni," and my dad refers to me as "Lil G."  She responded with, "So, G, what names do you like for girls?"  I told her of my most recent favorite name, Abby (short for Abigail).  She shared with me her favorites, as she continued to process my deposit, and told me that her favorite male names come from the Bible:  Jeremiah, John, Luke, and so on.  She then asked me, "But you know what the BEST one is?!"  Seeing as she was talking about religious names, I took a wild guess:  "Jesus?"  Her eyes lit up, she threw her hand up in the air and exclaimed, "You go girl!  Up top!"  I took her invitation and gave her the high five she was looking for.  As she wrote down my balance and handed me the slip of paper, she perkily laughed and said, "Thanks Gen, you made my day!"

This cooky lady took what was a mediocre day and made it a bit brighter with her sky-colored eyeshadow and her gigantic smile.  Just when I had assumed that everyone at PNC was approaching me with false enthusiasm in order to keep their jobs, I met someone who turned my cynicism into joy.

Sometimes beauty comes into my life at just the right moment and reminds me of my purpose.  I want to be like Kay the banker.  I want to be able to show people that I genuinely care about them, smile widely, and give high fives (although I don't know that I could adopt the phrase "you go girl!" in good conscience).  In my Beat Writers class today, my professor passed around an issue of Rolling Stone that was published right after Allen Ginsberg's death.  As a tribute, one of his friends wrote about how he had the ability to make people feel comfortable anywhere he went, and that his sense of humor always found a way to shine through his frustrations with society.  What a beautiful way to be remembered--as someone who brought joy to others.  Sometimes I get caught up in the stress of daily life, like many others, I'm sure, and I forget how wonderful it feels to make someone smile, even for just a second.  

So thanks for the reminder, Kay.  You made my day, too.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Crazy Beautiful Life

Today's title comes from a song on Ke$ha's new album in which she expresses her love of life in all its chaotic glory.  Even though the semester has just started and I'm already feeling a pretty large amount of pressure and stress, I am feeling pretty content.  After a bit of analysis,  I came to realize that I find my happiness in little moments throughout the day.  Even when I am having a terrible day or a stressful week, I can still find little moments of joy that set me at ease amidst the chaos.  The closest analogy I can think of to describe this feeling is when you are walking along on a chilly day, and once you turn a corner or walk just outside of a building's shadow, you can feel the sun on your back.  You close your eyes, and just for a moment, everything feels peaceful.  These kinds of moments not only carry me through rough times, but they make great times feel even better.

One of my favorite ways to experience one of these moments of pure happiness is when you do something nice for someone else.  Most recently, I threw a surprise party for one of my close friends, Amy.  She is one of the kindest, most generous people I've ever known, and I wanted her to feel appreciated and loved.  Everyone waited at my house, and I picked her up and brought her over.  When everyone jumped out and yelled, "surprise!" I looked at her expression, and felt that feeling of contentment fall over me for a few seconds.  Seeing the gigantic smile on her face made me feel truly happy.  I'm working on a theory that people who do nice things for others, on a daily basis, are usually the happiest.

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Other things that provide these blissful moments in life?

Ke$ha songs

Her music is so fun and carefree that it is nearly impossible not to absorb some of that attitude when listening.

Calls/texts from the people I care about most

Even though I sometimes get too busy to respond or call back right away, it is always nice to feel that you have a supportive network of people in your life.  It takes a lot of work  to create relationships that are strong enough to withstand just about anything, but when you have them, it can be one of the most comforting feelings in the world.

Hugs (from just about anyone)

Whenever I am having a minor moment of crisis, hugs generally make everything better.  I don't know how.   But I do not care.  It works.

Singing incredibly loud in my car/pretending to be a rockstar

I recommend this for just about anyone.  I don't really have a stellar voice, but I turn the music up just loud enough so that I can't tell, and I'm in the zone.

Yummy food

It is really hard to feel stressed out with a delicious plate of mashed potatoes in front of you.  Comfort food is labeled so for a reason.

Michael Cera movies

Michael Cera captures the awkward humor in life perfectly.  I relate to the majority of his characters, and they make me laugh/forget about my own problems for a little while.


Comfy t-shirts

One of my favorite feelings during student teaching was walking into my room, kicking my heels off, and putting on my comfiest t-shirt and pj shorts.  Add comfy slippers, and the feeling that results is pure bliss.

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Some of these may seem trivial, but they really do provide moments of pleasure throughout my day that, put simply, make my life happier.  Sure, everyone has big picture goals for their lives, but being able to soak up the little, wonderful moments in life really can make everything a little sweeter.  Try it sometime :).



Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year!

Every year, I participate in the silly custom that is creating new year's resolutions.  Here is the condensed version of my list:

-Run
-Eat more vegetables
-Play guitar (well)
-Manage time more efficiently
-Do selfless things on a daily basis
-Get a teaching job
-Write this blog

...And, most importantly, the one that led to the title of my blog:  LIVE LIKE KE$HA!

I don't plan on feeling like P. Diddy when I wake up tomorrow morning (or any morning), and I certainly won't be brushing my teeth with Jack any time soon, but I've never seen anyone have so much fun in my life.  She is living every little girl's dream.  She puts on ridiculous outfits, piles multi-colored glitter on her eyelids, crimps her hair, and sings/dances her heart out on stage.  While I don't want to adopt her party girl lifestyle, I envy that she has managed to live in a state of permanent uninhibitedness.  Just about everyone criticizes her look, her lack of talent, and her absurdity as a human being, but she still gets up on stage and never tones it down.  She accepts who she is, flaunts it, and enjoys the heck out of life.  I think everyone could benefit from this type of attitude.  After her NYE performance tonight, she said, "Let's make 2011 our bitch!"  Well, yes, let's.  This year, I will do what I love, I will let all of the negative things go, and I will have fun.  Watching Ke$ha reminds me that we all need to take ourselves a little less seriously sometimes.

As far as this blog goes, I plan to make weekly posts about anything and everything.  Feel free to follow along!